Breakdown Gara-gara Konstantinopel
assalamu'alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barokatuh
SOOOOOOOO
Hi
It's been long since i wrote, yea?
okk, jadi, kronologinya :
1. Waktu kumpul-kumpul mentoring sama temen-temen SKI dan alumni juga, kita bahas hal-hal biasa. Terus, mereka tiba-tiba ngomongin Muhammad Al-Fatih. Aku bahkan waktu itu ngga ngerti itu siapa. Terus mereka ngomong kalau dia ada di hadistnya Rasulullah yang tentang sebaik-baik pemimpin dan sebaik-baik pasukan. Aku langsung kaya "woooooow"
2. Anyway, later, atau pas itu juga ya(?) aku ngerti kalau Muhammad Al-Fatih itu yang njatuhin Konstantinopel dan akhirnya bangsa barat nyari rempah-rempah di negara lain, termasuk Indonesia.
3. Terus, sekian waktu kemudian, aku langganan netflix. Aku waktu itu suka banget sama seri 'Dont F*** With Cats' dan aku akhirnya cari-cari seri/film dokumenter, dannnnnn nemulah aku seri 'Rise of Empires : Ottoman' dan aku langsung "WAAAAAHHH" dan langsung masukin ke listku.
4. Long story short, aku nonton ep 1, 2, dan 3 terus bosen, karena isinya gagal terus:( ya sedih ya mangkel:( akhirnya aku langsung ke ep 6 (terakhir) karna kemenangannya kan disitu.
*ya gini tipe2 org yang ga sabaran buat ngeraih sukses:( astaghfirullah:(
5. Setelah habis ep 6, aku brebes mili alias mo nangis:"""""( naratornya bilang kalo penaklukan Konstantinopel ini mengubah sejarah untuk 300 tahun. AKUTU SEDIH SAMA BAGIAN 300 TAHUNNYA. Semua struggle yang dilakuin muslim-muslimin sebelumku itu keren pollll:(((((((((( tapi sekarang udah makin berkurang dan berkurang terus kejayaan Islam:""""(
AND WHATS THE WORST PART? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING AND IT'S JUST SOOOOO DIFFICULT FOR ME TO DO SOMETHING.
SULTAN MEHMED II WAS A PRINCE, AND HE WAS TRAINED TO BE A SULTAN AND HE HAD THIS MASSIVE EMPIRE ALREADY AND IT SEEMS FOR ME THAT HE'S NEAR. anyway, im belittling his struggles. NO!!!!!!!!!! what i mean is that, it's clear for him what his goal is- taking over Constantinople, bcs its been done 23 times, but all of them failed. it was clear for him what he wanted AND WHAT HE HAD GOT.
to be honest, aku pengen ngelakuin hal-hal yang lebih military juga, misal ngebantu ngelawan Israel, karna pengen kaya Rasulullah sama Muhammad Al-Fatih (kan perjuangannya ada militarynya). Tapi.... as u can see.... darimana aku bisa dapet pelatihan sm persenjataan. Toh ya pun ada, aku dapet support pasukan darimana? Susah banget lo cari org yang bener2 mau mati utk Islam.
Anyway, ive been thinking, andddddd i genuinely think that the best thing that i can do for the moslems in Palestine is donating and maybe i'll go there one day and help educate them, as i do here in Indonesia. My power is intelligence, tbh. it's not that im a genius. it's that ive got nothing better. physique? nah. money? nah. powet? nah. i'm just sooooooooo blessed to be given this intelligence thoooo fr alhamdulillaaaah. So, im not going to be Muhammad Al-Fatih on my own. Imma give education and build strong strong Islamic foundation so that there can be many people like Muhammad Al-Fatih. Many. Many. Many. aamiin.
so, ive been in a short breakdown bcs i was studying history and i read about how constantinople was conquested by the Ottomans. and it hit me one more time i even cried this time, bcs i felt soooooo lonely. i haven't met someone who would die for Islam, or maybe i have, but i don't know. now im even studying history, not pretty much for my own sake. ITS BCS I WATCHED THAT OTTOMAN SERIES AND I WAS LIKE "OH HELL NAAAAAH I CAN'T JUST SIT HERE WATCHING MOVIES/SERIES ALL DAY ALL NIGHT AND NOT CONTRIBUTE ANYTHING TO ISLAM"
so starting last night, i've been doing my study programme, again, after it was abandoned bcs of my laziness LOL astaghfirullah:(((((
writing almost always helps me to relieve stress tho. im just so happy now bcs i've been writing, it's getting clearer for me what i should do now and for the rest of my life. anyway,
1. Alhamdulillaah, hamba bersyukur, Ya Allah, atas taufik dan hidayahmu, sehingga hamba sekarang lebih fokus untuk berkontribusi untuk agama Islam, Ya Allah.
2. Shalawat serta salam untuk baginda Rasulullah:")))) oh how i wanna meet him :")))) thanks for every single thing that you said and did:"))))))
3. Thanks to every struggling moslems before me, especially Sultan Mehmed II.
4. Thanks to my sski fellas for literally giving me lotss and lotss of new lessons.
5. Thanks to rafli nur muhamad, my jhs friend, who recommended 'dont f*** with cats' to me.
6. Thanks Netflix for making that series and the Ottoman series.
7. Thanks for every historians who recorded almost every thing, so that now i can learn and GET INSPIRED from them.
8. Thanks for blogger for letting my ideas and feelings out into words.
alhamdulillah.....
wassalamu'alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barokatuh
SOOOOOOOO
Hi
It's been long since i wrote, yea?
okk, jadi, kronologinya :
1. Waktu kumpul-kumpul mentoring sama temen-temen SKI dan alumni juga, kita bahas hal-hal biasa. Terus, mereka tiba-tiba ngomongin Muhammad Al-Fatih. Aku bahkan waktu itu ngga ngerti itu siapa. Terus mereka ngomong kalau dia ada di hadistnya Rasulullah yang tentang sebaik-baik pemimpin dan sebaik-baik pasukan. Aku langsung kaya "woooooow"
2. Anyway, later, atau pas itu juga ya(?) aku ngerti kalau Muhammad Al-Fatih itu yang njatuhin Konstantinopel dan akhirnya bangsa barat nyari rempah-rempah di negara lain, termasuk Indonesia.
3. Terus, sekian waktu kemudian, aku langganan netflix. Aku waktu itu suka banget sama seri 'Dont F*** With Cats' dan aku akhirnya cari-cari seri/film dokumenter, dannnnnn nemulah aku seri 'Rise of Empires : Ottoman' dan aku langsung "WAAAAAHHH" dan langsung masukin ke listku.
4. Long story short, aku nonton ep 1, 2, dan 3 terus bosen, karena isinya gagal terus:( ya sedih ya mangkel:( akhirnya aku langsung ke ep 6 (terakhir) karna kemenangannya kan disitu.
*ya gini tipe2 org yang ga sabaran buat ngeraih sukses:( astaghfirullah:(
5. Setelah habis ep 6, aku brebes mili alias mo nangis:"""""( naratornya bilang kalo penaklukan Konstantinopel ini mengubah sejarah untuk 300 tahun. AKUTU SEDIH SAMA BAGIAN 300 TAHUNNYA. Semua struggle yang dilakuin muslim-muslimin sebelumku itu keren pollll:(((((((((( tapi sekarang udah makin berkurang dan berkurang terus kejayaan Islam:""""(
AND WHATS THE WORST PART? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING AND IT'S JUST SOOOOO DIFFICULT FOR ME TO DO SOMETHING.
SULTAN MEHMED II WAS A PRINCE, AND HE WAS TRAINED TO BE A SULTAN AND HE HAD THIS MASSIVE EMPIRE ALREADY AND IT SEEMS FOR ME THAT HE'S NEAR. anyway, im belittling his struggles. NO!!!!!!!!!! what i mean is that, it's clear for him what his goal is- taking over Constantinople, bcs its been done 23 times, but all of them failed. it was clear for him what he wanted AND WHAT HE HAD GOT.
to be honest, aku pengen ngelakuin hal-hal yang lebih military juga, misal ngebantu ngelawan Israel, karna pengen kaya Rasulullah sama Muhammad Al-Fatih (kan perjuangannya ada militarynya). Tapi.... as u can see.... darimana aku bisa dapet pelatihan sm persenjataan. Toh ya pun ada, aku dapet support pasukan darimana? Susah banget lo cari org yang bener2 mau mati utk Islam.
Anyway, ive been thinking, andddddd i genuinely think that the best thing that i can do for the moslems in Palestine is donating and maybe i'll go there one day and help educate them, as i do here in Indonesia. My power is intelligence, tbh. it's not that im a genius. it's that ive got nothing better. physique? nah. money? nah. powet? nah. i'm just sooooooooo blessed to be given this intelligence thoooo fr alhamdulillaaaah. So, im not going to be Muhammad Al-Fatih on my own. Imma give education and build strong strong Islamic foundation so that there can be many people like Muhammad Al-Fatih. Many. Many. Many. aamiin.
so, ive been in a short breakdown bcs i was studying history and i read about how constantinople was conquested by the Ottomans. and it hit me one more time i even cried this time, bcs i felt soooooo lonely. i haven't met someone who would die for Islam, or maybe i have, but i don't know. now im even studying history, not pretty much for my own sake. ITS BCS I WATCHED THAT OTTOMAN SERIES AND I WAS LIKE "OH HELL NAAAAAH I CAN'T JUST SIT HERE WATCHING MOVIES/SERIES ALL DAY ALL NIGHT AND NOT CONTRIBUTE ANYTHING TO ISLAM"
so starting last night, i've been doing my study programme, again, after it was abandoned bcs of my laziness LOL astaghfirullah:(((((
writing almost always helps me to relieve stress tho. im just so happy now bcs i've been writing, it's getting clearer for me what i should do now and for the rest of my life. anyway,
1. Alhamdulillaah, hamba bersyukur, Ya Allah, atas taufik dan hidayahmu, sehingga hamba sekarang lebih fokus untuk berkontribusi untuk agama Islam, Ya Allah.
2. Shalawat serta salam untuk baginda Rasulullah:")))) oh how i wanna meet him :")))) thanks for every single thing that you said and did:"))))))
3. Thanks to every struggling moslems before me, especially Sultan Mehmed II.
4. Thanks to my sski fellas for literally giving me lotss and lotss of new lessons.
5. Thanks to rafli nur muhamad, my jhs friend, who recommended 'dont f*** with cats' to me.
6. Thanks Netflix for making that series and the Ottoman series.
7. Thanks for every historians who recorded almost every thing, so that now i can learn and GET INSPIRED from them.
8. Thanks for blogger for letting my ideas and feelings out into words.
alhamdulillah.....
wassalamu'alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barokatuh
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